Bukanlah di hati
Indahnya hanya mimpi
Bila engkau menghampiri
Seakan..
Tiada pedoman
Bila kau mendustakan
Kalam tuhan yang maha agung
[ taken from a song, Cermin Duniawi by Firdaus & Tomok ]
Hie bloggie..
aluu..! didn't write for so long.. it's now 3.37am.. everyone in de house is sleeping.. i'm the only one awake.. i couldn't sleep actually.. i was having headache and took extra panadol b4 sleeping at abt 9 pm yesterday.. so tired! who wld not be tired after standing for more than 4 hours and repeating the same words again and again? the whole sec 3 in my sch had to go for flag day yesterdae.. i partnered azy and went to Boon Lay mrt station to approach ppl to donate some coins for the S.P.C.A. .. in the morning, 8.30am onwards, it was going on well.. i didn't know dat some ppl can be so generous.. they put in notes and a few coins.. but as the sun rose higher, those ppl were the ones i knew.. they either pointed de sticker on their shirt, bag or watever to show dat they had donated, or just ignored us.. at least, there were some courteous ppl who waved us away with a smile.. but i nvr got tired when doing the c.i.p. .. i kept smiling to all the ppl i approached and asked, "Would you like to donate, sir/mdm ? Thank you, sir/mdm. Have a nice day." ah! i saw one of my frens, loz.. he surprised me really! i turned back when i heard someone called my name, and he was putting in coins in the tin i was holding.. hahaha! didn't meet him for so long already.. i cld see dat he had grown up, a bit.. hehe! he was wearing his ns uniform which my sis said it was civil defence one.. when i asked him where he was going, he said he was going back..( dunno going back to where..home? ) ard 1pm sumtink, we stopped and returned the almost-3/4-full tin.. we went for lunch at banquet and ate kway tuay hotplate.. after visting the pet station with azy, we both went home together.. so dat was my experience for flag day..
i dunno why i can't sleep.. i shld be sleeping now bcoz i took extra panadol.. aniwae, the headache is now gone, thank God.. hm.. i'm listening to Cermin Duniawi from jus now.. it seems to be so true.. Indahnya hanya mimpi bila engkau menghampiri.. Bila tiada di genggaman, saat terasa nilai nya.. b4 slept, i listened to nbz 5th album, Bermulanya Satu Evolusi.. i usually repeat the whole album but i didn't.. i suddenly felt dat it was all fake, not true.. fairytales.. den i listening to The Bez of Nbz.. i tink i slept halfway there.. i only remembered listening to sejarah mungkin berulang.. i miss them.. i miss the old ways they once had.. i miss the old times we all had.. i noe i have to let go coz i'm not the one to decide wat to happen.. i'm not the one to decide on somebody's life.. i noe dat.. hush! so sentimental..
end-of-yr exam is coming very soon.. as expected, i'm not prepared yet.. 15 more days to revise more than 30 chapters ( all subjects included ).. homework, i dun tink all done.. argh! stress!! haha.. i'm not really sure whether it's a real stress.. ppl anyhow use the word.. hey, nazura! u shld buck up, u noe.. maintain ur standard! asyik nk malas ajek..nyampah aku! hehe.. tupid..
seems dat prof jf is going further away.. go lar.. i want to stand on my foot now.. thank you, watever u've done.. uwaaa!!! hmp! hapiealways, dun cry nazura.. hehe! tupid.. ah! almost forgot.. on fri, 7 ppl in my class didn't attend sch.. all sick.. wahh.. broke the record! even amg those who came, 2 ppl went to sickbay.. bcoz of dat, my class succeed in 'persuading' mrs tan to postpone the emaths test on mon.. we all knew the fact that the chapters tested were difficult.. and also we had not studied them well! hehe..
hm.. wat to do? i'm begining to feel hungry.. did i eat my dinner? i did, rite? woah.. to the ppl who are reading this entry, u scroll up.. i wrote this much?? and it's now 4.25am!! i wrote all this for an hour?? can't believe it.. i usually write for less than i hour coz i dun usually have enough time.. either my sisters want to play, my father ask me to take my bath, i have to eat my meal, or i want to sleep.. haha! aniwae, shld i continue writing? i dunno wat to do if i stop writing.. oh yah! i dreamed jus now.. hehe! very funny dream.. oh, okie! let's go on to nxt paragraph..
my dream.. happened to be in the bus 945.. ( shld be.. ) i was sitting beside my sis.. i was inside and she was outside.. we were near the alighting door.. then the one my sis called 'si kucing', went up the bus and wanted to sit at the back of the bus.. of coz, kucing had to pass us.. but my sis's bag was so big dat kucing cldn't pass thru.. in fact, my sis blocked the way on purpose.. ( i dunno why.. it's a dream! ) and de kucing knew dat.. so de kucing pushed the bag away so dat kucing cld pass us.. i'm not sure whether de kucing scolded my sis or wat, bcoz the nxt thing happened was dat my sis cried.. kucing was shocked.. den i exchanged seats with my sis to be in btwn them.. haha! i scolded kucing for making my sis cry.. after apologised to us, kucing sat jus behind us.. and my sis stopped crying, i tink.. ( dunno whether the other passengers were looking or not.. or whether the bus jln or not.. ) i dunno wat we talked abt.. but kucing said sumtink dat made me blushed.. nxt thing, i asked kucing sumtink abt guitar.. den we alighted jus b4 the bus stop in front of cdans.. we went to kucing's shop.. it was actually guitar shop..i remembered kucing pointed out kucing's own guitar b4 dissappearing out of thin air.. i wasn't even shocked bcoz i was admiring all the guitars there.. i looked at every guitar, nylon string, steel string, ascoustic ( correct spelling? ), and electric guitar.. i tried out some too.. the bez one i tried was so nice! it was flat, blue colour, electric guitar.. the sound..uish! damn nice, man! the shop also sell cloth to polish the guitar.. i remembered the salesman said dat the bez polishing cloth was the black one.. after dat, i went to the other shop nearby.. ( dunno whether my sis was still in my dream or not.. ) den i turned out to be window shopping b4 i woke up.. haha!! i want to buy the polishing cloth.. ( if they really exist in this world! ) bcoz my guitar is now gathering dust on her body.. and also, one day i'm going to buy dat blue electric guitar.. so nice!! so pretty!! ( so handsome if the guitar is a male.. hehe! )
hmm.. it is really, very long already.. shld i continue? i also dunno wat else to write.. i tink i've written down everything in mind.. so hungry! shld i sleep? it's now 5.10 am.. yeah, i tink i want to sleep already.. okie, bubyes!
still luving u, bloggie..
muax!